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hello everyone- welcome to my exclusives page! generally speaking, face claims are not as big of a priority to me as the writing itself. that being said, sometimes i’ll grow attached to the portrayals of my mutuals’ characters and so much so that i’ll automatically associate the faceclaims used with their portrayals. i also highly recommend these mutuals as they are EXCELLENT writers and WONDERFUL individuals 💕if we are interacting, i don’t expect any kind of exclusivity from you; it is completely optional on your part. and i don’t go out of my way to look for it either. that being said, if we are discussing exclusivity, i expect it to apply in both directions. exclusivity will be developed based on ic connection ( threads, ic interactions, chemistry, headcanons, etc. ) and ooc connection ( ooc communication, plotting, ease at which we can communicate ). no exclusivity will be established unless it is explicitly agreed upon by both parties. please talk to me ooc if you are interested in being exclusives!my muses will be not interacting with other muses who use these faceclaims. other exclusives listed here include the faceclaims of npcs/other ocs not featured on this blog that play significant roles in my muses’ lives.

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RAPHAEL HUA-JIE WEI.

LAMON CHUPONG.

ANNIE YERIN CHOI.

AHN YOOJIN.

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in the end (main muses.)

• annie ( buoyancy. )
• k ( the left hand. )
• nell ( the pawn. )
• alfred ( the rook. )
• lamon ( resurgam. )

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pleasure (request muses.)

• mana ( with a gentle resolve. )
• raphael ( more than a name. )
• yoojin ( tempora mutantur. )
• felicity ( the time traveller. )
• aeri ( the diamond. )

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with a gentle resolve ( mana. )

🕯️ she needed a hero so that’s what she became. ( interactions. answered. headcanons. dash games. aesthetic. mirror. )

rp info.

basics & appearance.

personality.

Raised by her widowed grandmother, Mana finds herself most comfortable with silence. She prefers books to people and doesn’t go out of her way to make connections with the people around her. Nonchalant, Mana takes a no-nonsense approach to life. Unafraid of other people’s disapproval, she doesn’t hesitate to speak her mind when she feels it to be necessary. She is eloquent yet harsh with her words. Practical and decisive as well, she takes pride in her self-sufficiency.The one area she flounders in, however, is the realm of emotions. Although outspoken, she finds herself uncomfortable with displays of strong emotions from other people and pushes her own feelings down to focus on practical (and survival) concerns. Although resiliency comes naturally to her at this point in her life, she often fails to realize what she considers uncomfortable to sit with is painfully unbearable for others to deal with. But she’s loyal. Fiercely dedicated and protective of her loved ones in spite of the emotional distance she places in between.Strong-willed, observant, and bold in a quieter sense, Mana doesn’t trust easily and often this mistrust extends to her loved ones. It’s not that she doesn’t think they can’t be trusted, but rather that after multiple losses, she cannot afford to take another hit, emotionally.And yet, she is learning now. Learning to trust others. Learning to soften. Learning to unlearn everything she had gained in the name of survival so she may become the person she was meant to be.Here’s an even more detailed profile!

history.

content warning for suicide, sexual assault, and forced prostitution.( tldr. ) She watched her mother pass in a supposed car accident that was actually a suicide. Grew up in silence and generally avoided intimate relationships with others. Stumbled into a friendship with Daniel Kim and Calum Reynolds. Lost her best friend to suicide. Grieved, struggled, but is now learning to heal.For as long as you could remember, two things have always been constant in your life: loss followed by silence.That might be a lie. There was a time, you could remember, a time before your mother passed from suicide right before your eyes, when you had a family. There was your mother, Linh Tran, and then your father, Phuoc Tran, both of whom couldn’t stop arguing with each other, no matter how well you did in school.( Is it your fault, you wonder. Was it because you could never remember your multiplication tables? )But when you are seven years old, the arguing crescendos into shouting. It’s your father, he’s sleeping with another woman in the bed he shares with your mother and your mother catches him in the act. Your mother hardly says anything after that, save for the final argument your dad insists on picking in your grandma’s apartment. It’s two months after she finds out about the affair that she ends it all. She walks in front of a moving car and you watch as she flies through the air and lands with a crack on the concrete. You’re only seven years old.And because you’re only seven years old, you end up living under the custody of Hong, your maternal grandmother. Your father is long gone by then; disappeared without a word towards you or Hong six months following your mother’s death.That’s when you learn about silence. You learn first from your grandmother, who, stricken with grief, refuses to say word more about your parents. She’s not much more talkative on other topics either. You then learn from the library, the one place that welcomes you in as a surrogate home. The one place that gives you books, which you come to trust more than people. Unlike people, books are concrete, easy to latch onto, impossible to be abandoned by.Your final set of lessons, however, starts when you are fourteen. Your grandmother has been working long shifts and yet the mortgage doesn’t seem to be going down. And there are still utility and water bills to pay along with groceries to buy. You tell her you will get a part-time job.Your stoic grandma snaps. She yells at you. Tells you you cannot. Tells you that everything she does is for you and if you get a job, that is disrespect to every sacrifice she has made to you and your mom.That doesn’t stop you from looking. But getting an adult to hire a fourteen-year-old child proves to be difficult. There is one man, however, who does let you work for him.His name is Mister Dinh. He’s the owner of the only convenience store around your block. A man around your grandmother’s age, he tells you he could pay you in riches. All you would have to do in return is keep him company at night.Sex is what he was saying that day. But you’re fourteen years old. You don’t realize that, until he calls upon you and it doesn’t occur to you that this isn’t supposed to happen to fourteen-year-old teenagers, old men asking for sexual flavors while dangling fifty bills like a carrot for a donkey.You know it’s bait, but you need the money. Your grandmother is old and she can’t be the only one generating income anymore. Shutting your mouth, you keep to your bargain with Mister Dinh, turning fifteen, sixteen, until you’re seventeen when your grandmother gets promoted at work. You don’t know if she knows about your bargain with Mister Dinh, but it’s much to your relief when she insists that you stay with her in the evenings. You can’t help but feel guilty at the same time though- it aggravates Mister Dinh to the point that eventually he confronts you at the nail salon during your grandmother’s shift.Your grandmother puts an end to your deal very quickly after that.By then, you’ve learned all you can about silence. How it protects you, how it guarantees you safety away from people. You carry those lessons with you as you begin your four years at college.At college, you don’t expect to make friends. You keep your distance from most people. Most people, with the exception.The first is Yejun “Daniel” Kim. The golden boy. The all-arounder. A boy with a smile as bright as the sun. And the second is Calum Hyun-Ki Reynolds. Quieter. Shier, but kind. Gentle. Somehow, they creep past your silence. They sit with it. They ask it questions. They give it warm hands and smiles. And you can’t help yourself. You break your silence, only for them. You get attached. Daniel becomes your best friend and Calum becomes someone very precious.It hurts a lot then, when Daniel, cheery, rowdy, bold, perfect Daniel, the first person you ever trusted outside of your family, passes from suicide. Just like your mother. The news says he fell into the train tracks, but the truth spreads like wildfire around the campus. They tell you he’s in a better place now. He’s no longer suffering.But where does that leave you, the one left behind, then?Something cracks after that. Calum leaves for Incheon and then the world. And you’re left back where you started- your grandmother’s apartment. Except you’re angry. You’re angry at Calum for leaving you, at Daniel for not being here anymore, your grandmother, your mom, your dad- who else is going to abandon you now?What are you supposed to do with all this grief?The answer, you come to realize, is to soften. To let it change you, not harden you. This is how you put yourself back together. Because if people can leave, then they can also come back. Calum returns from his travels. Your grandmother starts to speak again. And you?You learn to soften.

verses.

( verse: softening. ) Main Verse. Years of hardship has left Mana wary, cynical, and closed-off from the rest of the world. But that’s not the kind of person she wants to be anymore. Little by little, she’s learning to unlearn everything she needed to survive. She’s learning to soften. ( opening to shipping, but default is taken by her canonical love interest, Calum Hyun Ki Reynolds. )( verse: smoke rises. ) Pre-Main Verse. Still reeling from Daniel’s passing, Mana buries her head in the sand to focus on a. getting through grad school and b. supporting herself and her grandma. She’ll do whatever it takes, even if it’s at the cost of her well-being. ( Still thinking about Calum AKA not open to shipping. )( verse: hoàn kiếm. ) Supernatural Verse. She was killed in a car accident, but that’s not the end for her yet. With the memories of her past life erased, she’s reborn as a lake spirit and now travels around the world carrying out the missions of Kim Quy. Goes by Hoàn.

bonds.

verse: softening.

CALUM HYUN-KI REYNOLDS. The love of Mana's life. Timid, softspoken, but incredibly kind, he has a bad habit of tendency of seeing to others' needs at the cost of his own. Good thing Mana's here to be selfish for him. They take care of each other and have seem to have found a family within each other. There is nothing that Mana wouldn't do for his happiness. ( love of her life ; @tenderpulsive - and i would choose you in every lifetime. )

YE-JUN “DANIEL” KIM. Mana's first friend both in college and in life. Bold, good-natured, and incredibly generous, Daniel was considered an all-rounder within his peer group, which seemed odd from the outside to see him remain close with Mana, a loner. His passing both sudden and devastating, Mana still misses him a lot. He will always be her best friend. ( best friend - i gotta lock you down. )

TAIYANG TSENG. Mana's long time friend. She met him through Calum, but he hangs around the library a lot more than she'd expect from someone who doesn't...you know, read. Her main distraction at work but at least he introduces her to new foods. ( friend ; @velvetineblue )

RAYMOND BARLOWE. A friend whom Mana also lowkey looks out for. Rough around the edges, he's gruff and has a temper, but who doesn't have flaws? At least he's a good student and he's ( most of the time ) respectful of the library guidelines. She can count on him for a good time. Or at least someone to banter with to pass the long hours. ( friend ; @bloodxhound )

KANG “JAY” JAE-SEONG. A patron at the library who became a friend in the process. A far cry from her idea of a musician, he’s the idealist to her cynic and likes to discuss both books and philosophy with her. She’s dubbed him as “lover boy” due to the many similarities he shares with her boyfriend. ( friend ; @thegreenswillcome )

SAMUEL DIAZ. A frequent patron at the library she works at. While he does his writing there, he also keeps asking for book recommendations on the same esoteric topic of storytelling. A nervous wreck, who perhaps to his misfortune, Mana enjoys poking fun at. ( friend ; @mythvoiced )

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more than a name ( raphael. )

🥘 he’s more than the prodigal son. ( interactions. answered. headcanons. dash games. aesthetic. mirror. )

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basics & appearance.

personality.

Don’t take his cheerful attitude at face value! Even if Raphael generally goes through life with a smile, he has a strong drive to succeed. But what’s the point of going through it all without having a little bit of fun? Blunt and impulsive, he’s driven very much by curiosity and an inability to keep his mouth shut.Over his career as a chef, his desire to prove himself has mellowed out, as he has found himself content (for now) with working at a relatively unknown diner in a small city. Despite his entry level position, Raphael remains passionate about cooking and food in general. There are few things in life that he derives more joy from than working at the cutting board or in front of the stove.Outside of the kitchen though, he’s reliable, if not protective of both his friends and family. He has a strong sense of justice although he’s more than happy to give people who have wronged him a second chance. A social person, he thrives best when in communication with other individuals. A warmhearted soul who paves the path to people’s hearts through the stomach.

history.

🥘 content warning for death.( tldr. ) He grew in the culinary shadow of his father. After a quick ascent in his career and losing his father, he withdrew from the culinary world. Currently relearning his love for cooking and trying to figure out what that final ingredient is supposed to be.The first time you ever cook, your father tells you a secret: there’s a special ingredient that a chef should always use to make delicious food. Perhaps cooking has always been in your destiny. After all, your father is a renowned chef known for his ability to mix and match ingredients to create masterpieces. But for you, your mother is the reason you begin cooking. She always smiles the brightest when eating food either you or your father prepared.This is your first inkling of the final ingredient your father is talking about. Cooking is a gift to give.But the world doesn’t think that of you. Even if you go by your mother’s last name. Even if you start your culinary career from the very bottom as a dishwasher. Even if you attend a renowned culinary school and work your way up to assistant sous chef at a prominent restaurant in Paris. The world still saw you as your father’s legacy and therefore a cheap imitation of him and his cooking. Still, you keep going, even if your bloodline garters you enemies and fake friends from all corners. You keep going anyways.Until you can’t anymore. First, just as you’re reaching a promotion, your father passes suddenly from heart failure. Second, as you're grieving and supporting your mother, you find out the truth- your position as assistant sous chef was due to nepotism, the owner’s desire to get your father to work for him. Put the two together and cooking becomes impossible. You can’t keep going like this.So you step down from your position. And you leave the culinary world.After that, you take to traveling and after some time, you take an entry-level position as a line cook at a 24/7 diner in Syracuse, New York. Life there is a lot less stressful in comparison to the one you led before, so you have time to think.What is that final ingredient supposed to be?You don’t have an answer yet, but it probably has something to do with the kid eating his sorrows out via fries and a milkshake. The kid, named Lamon, who, after you stumble across having a break down on a children’s playground another night, ends up becoming your roommate.

verses.

( verse: the final ingredient. ) Main Verse. After stepping away from the culinary world, Raphael makes a quiet comeback at a 24/7 diner in Syracuse, New York. Thankful for the anonymity, he continues to develop his cooking although he has wonder- what is that final ingredient supposed to be?

bonds.

LAMON CHUPHONG. Raphael's roommate aka the main victim of Ray's terrible experiments. Grumpy, forgetful, but also deeply loyal, Lamon may complain about eating Ray's food but will unfailingly always try everything put on his plate at least once. Despite being polar opposites, the two share a preference towards anonymity and a need to prove themselves. ( eventual life partner ; lamon chuphong - all the strings attached. )

TAIYANG TSENG. An enabler of Raphael's terrible ideas. Although his criticism is a lot less harsher than Lam's, Ray does go to him first for an opinion for his more bizarre ideas in exchange for a free meal. ( friend ; @velventineblue )

CARADOC COLLINS. Another enabler of Raphael's terrible ideas. Arguably the worst influence on Ray’s cooking by Lam’s words, the chatterbox mutant not only encourages Ray to pursue his harebrained ideas, but he also provides his own ideas for Ray to build off of. At least he tries everything Ray makes at least once. ( friend ; @theimpalpable )

LEXINE LOGAN. More considerate and levelheaded in comparison to her best friend, Caradoc, Lexine is but another unfortunate victim of Ray’s demon spawn foods. A biochemist who likes to bake to destress, she too enjoys experiment although perhaps not to the degree which Ray operates at. ( friend ; @theimpalpable )

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resurgam ( lamon. )

🌱 cull the shame. ( interactions. answered. headcanons. dash games. aesthetic. mirror. )

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personality.

Once considered one of the brightest students at his university, Lamon had high expectations for himself. Raised in a family that had high expectations of him, he internalized those expectations and was very hard on himself when he made a mistake. (He still is.) He threw himself almost entirely into his studies for almost all of his schooling, so now that he’s done with schooling, he finds himself floundering on how to live life. In general, he seems to have lost his drive to succeed along with his general zest for life itself.
Honest to a fault, but also well-mannered, Lamon tends to introduce himself with at best an apathetic attitude and at worst, a prickly attitude. Even with his students, he keeps a poker face and an impassive voice, preferring to maintain emotional privacy. The attitude, however, is merely a front.For the cold front he might put up, in truth, Lamon is actually quite the worrier and has a tendency to overthink just about everything. On one end, it makes him an observant individual, meticulous in his grading. On the other hand, he doesn’t have the emotional capacity to set it down so sooner or later, he’ll have to spill out whatever he’s thinking. Interestingly enough, this ability to hyperfocus will only activate in topics and events that interest Lamon- otherwise, he’ll zone out and can become quite destructive.

history.

🌱 content warning for car crashes and toxic friendships.( tldr. ) In his junior year of college, he developed a deep friendship with a girl named Robin. He was involved in a car accident she caused and while retaining physical scars and wounds, he’s still trying to understand what went wrong and why she did it.All your life, you’ve been riddled with expectation after expectation. Your parents expect good grades and athletics out of you and your friends expect a winning personality out of you. It’s not because they hate you, you know. It’s because they love you and they want you to succeed.This is why you’ve never tried to bend against them.Maybe that’s why you can’t help but be pulled towards Robin Choi. She’s everything your parents told you not to be, growing up- she drinks and smokes often. She sneaks into parties she’s not invited to only to become the life of the party. She lives by the saying, ‘kiss and don’t tell’.In other words, she’s unlike anyone you’ve ever met before. Maybe that’s why you decide you like her. If the ones around you put you in the box, Robin lifts the lid. She makes you feel free, whether that’s the way she insists on smoking as you two study outside the library or the way she drags you to parties and art museums simultaneously on weekends.Six months into your friendship, she tells you you’re unlike anyone she’s met before. You’re the only one she can trust in this terrible, terrible world. And then she tells you perhaps one of the most personal stories about herself. She tells you the story of a girl whose mother bailed on her husband and daughter when the daughter was in first grade. The father became an alcoholic and beat his daughter frequently and the only way out of that household was for the daughter to get a full-ride scholarship to a university. At the end, she tells you, you’re one of the few people who knows the entire truth about her.You hold her hand and you tell her you’ll always be there for her.Senior year, you start out optimistic. The end of college is in sight and your best friend is by your side, how can things possibly go wrong?Well, they do. It starts off small. You start to notice Robin getting into fights with other people, many of them being your friends. They’re not even over big issues- some of them, you can’t help but think could easily be avoided. Your other friends pull you aside- they tell you about the way she’s screwed them over, whether that’s through spreading rumors or bullying or cheating them out of their money.You ask her about it once. Well more like, she goes to you and tells you she going to break up with your roommate, Cocaine Donald. She had been dating him for a few months. Weren’t they going strong? She tells you, he was triggering her, that she didn’t feel safe around him anymore. And when you ask her when she’s going to tell him, she tells you she won’t. She’s just going to ghost him because her PTSD makes her unable to confront people.There’s a voice in the back of your head that says that doesn’t sound right. You keep quiet though. Because unlike her, you’ve had nothing but a good life. A strict, but loving family, food to eat, and a roof to stay under- what do you know about trauma?You end up avoiding your roommate for the rest of that semester. And eventually, all of the other friends who warned you about her because they can’t be wrong. She’s not a bad person, she can’t be because she’s nice to you, so that makes her a nice person. ( Looking back, that should've been your sign to get the fuck out. )But more than that, she’s starting to worry you. She’s becoming more distant, more erratic- drinking more, smoking more, sleeping with other people more often. It makes you frantic, but you quiet your mind. You don’t know how to make things better for her so all you can do is simply be there for her, through thick and thin.And more importantly, she’s your best friend. Unlike the others, you’re not expendable…right?Turns out she does think you’re expendable if the car accident you two got into says anything. A peaceful early December night, you’re both at a party and for once you’re both enjoying yourselves. Robin seems more like herself and for once, you have hope. Maybe, just maybe the worst has finally passed. She tells you suddenly that she’s going home and being the good friend you think you are, you go with her.What’s supposed to be a peaceful car ride turns into a horrific accident with another vehicle contains an even worse twist of events. Robin comes out with only minor wounds and you come out with a heavy set of scars and partial paralysis in his right arm. The other person in the accident was also heavily wounded. But the worst part is that later when you wake up in the hospital, you find out that Robin was caught trying to switch out her spot as the driver with you in the passenger seat. She tried to pass the blame for the accident off onto you.Investigations wrote the accident off as the result of drunk teenage driving. You, however, doubt that. Because if his memory serves you correctly, Robin purposefully drove into that other person. And even as she’s serving time for her actions, the question still gnaws at you. Why? Why did she do it?Well, you won't be getting an answer any time soon. By the time you come back to school, most of your friends have abandoned you. You're lucky that Cocaine Donald even wants to still be roommates with you. Him and the weird guy who can somehow make milkshake disgusting. At least he doesn't judge you for being quiet.

verses.

( verse: cull the shame. ) Main Verse. Two years following the accident, Lamon is struggling to understand why Robin did what she did. Between grading papers and visiting Robin at the visitor’s center, he’s currently just living his life as a biology teacher at a prep school.( verse: something comforting. ) Gamer AU. After his accident, Lamon turns to video games to cope with the loneliness. Eventually, he becomes every Asian-American's parents' worst nightmare- a Youtuber. With a steady and following, he plays video games for a living and his worst enemy is his shitty sleep cycle.

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RAPHAEL HUA-JIE WEI. His roommate, who likes to drive Lamon up the wall with his terrible ideas of what milkshakes should taste like. As an outsider, but also the first person to take a liking to Lamon as person, he's one of the few people Lamon has come to fully trust. They don't know each other’s full story. Their friendship saved Lamon's life. ( eventual life partner ; raphael hua-jie wei - all the strings attached. )

ROBIN SUNMI CHOI. One of Lamon's dearest friends back in college. Charismatic but also mistrusting, she had Lamon wrapped around her finger. Now serving time for drunk driving and for attempted forgery of evidence. ( former friend - carry you to all the places you'll never see. )

❤️ AKINA MORI. A straightforward, aloof, and, hauntingly beautiful girl whom he shares history with. They had recipricoal feelings for one another until Robin came along and ruined that. Technically reunited, but he doesn’t know what she actually thinks of him…but for once he’s gonna be selfish about this. ( crush ; @wellfell - help me piece it all together darling. )

TAIYANG TSENG. An enabler of Ray's terrible ideas and therefore, the second person Lamon would like to strangle. Just kidding, he won't ( yet ). Also just a chill dude to hang around even if they're both suffering from Ray's creativity. An unlikely friend found in the most unusual of circumstances. ( friend ; @velvetineblue )

LEXINE LOGAN. The voice of reason in this wasteland of fools. Not only does she always seem to be prepared for any occasion like keeping pain medication in her bag, she also makes excellent baked treats. A fellow comrade/partner in crime when it comes to avoiding eating Ray’s food. ( friend ; @theimpalpable )

CARADOC COLLINS. The jovial and talkative counterpart to his best friend, Lexine, he also enables Ray and his terrible ideas and even worse gives him new ones to build off of. Lam, on occasion, would also like to strangle him but refrains from doing so. If only because Doc avoids physical contact. ( friend ; @theimpalpable )

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buoyancy ( annie. )

🌊 even the worst scars will fade. ( interactions. answered. headcanons. dash games. aesthetic. mirror )

rp info.

basics & appearance.

personality.

Once a headstrong young woman with a passion for medicine and a love for family, Annie was outspoken, perhaps a bit brash, but also incredibly protective and loving of her family and friends. Nowadays, however, as a result of the incident, she’s become much meeker if not even fearful of strangers, preferring to avoid other individuals whenever possible. At the same time though, she may be prone to fits of anger and even hysteria. It often frustrates her that she is no longer the person she once was- a force to be reckoned with, a firecracker, someone with dreams and ambitions and the drive to achieve them.Prone to zoning out, it may seem like she’s not actually in the moment when in conversation. While she may swing between moments of lethgary and restlessness, what has happened to her ultimately has not changed who she is at the core- compassionate, considerate, and most importantly, forgiving. Believing that people are still inherently good despite the bad in this world. Of course, it might take some time to…reconnect with that core though.

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( verse: buoy in the water. )

♠️ content warning for kidnapping, literary gore, torture, death, and severe PTSD.Please note, Annie Cresta from Suzanne Collins’ The Hunger Games Trilogy does not belong to me- this is only my interpretation of her in a modern verse. Highly recommend the book series as it has excellent world building and realistic characterizations. There might be spoilers in that I parallel what happened to her to what happened in her canon verse.( tldr. ) She was caught in a hostage situation, where her abductors turned their hostages against one another in a fight to the death. After witnessing her fellow classmate and coworker get beheaded in front of her eyes, she ‘went mad’ and ‘hasn’t returned’ since. The only survivor of this situation, after she escaped via swimming down the river.They called you the ‘Wave Girl’ or ‘Cresta’ for short for the fact that ever since you were little, you always loved the ocean. For hours on end, you would play in the water, splashing in the waves, always meeting the crest of the waves with your head up towards the sun. A little buoy, your mother used to compare you to. In the water, though you could swim, your first instinct was always to float.( The boy next door, stupid Odair, said you should dye your hair orange to fit the image. )But perhaps this was to be expected, being born in a coastal city. Growing up, you never saw much of your father as he was always overseas busy working to provide for you, your mother, and your younger sister. Your mother, a rather delicate woman, never resented him for the fact and your younger sister never had many memories of him. You, on the other hand, resented him for the way his work made your mother feel. As you got older, you made it a goal to become the breadwinner of your house without ever abandoning your family the way your father did.And you were on your way there. Taking an interest in medicine, you worked your way up to medical school, skipping grades when you could and (begrudgingly) let your father cover schooling tuition. After a grueling four years in medical school, you were ready to start residency- you wanted to become an anesthesiologist but settled for family medicine instead.And then it happened. During your first year of residency, a group of armed men came in and took over the hospital you were on shift for. After rounding up all the people who were remaining in the building, they placed a ransom on the hostage, demanding a large sum of money to be paid by the government in the next three days. Perhaps if it were left at that, perhaps if a bargain had been struck in you would have been okay…However, a bargain was not reached within that and so your abductors turned to a different tactic. They turned you and the other hostages against each other- by withholding the medicine, food, and water, they made you all fight to the death for the meander supplies they would give you. You were incredulous- among this group of 24, were your colleagues, former classmates, and patients. Surely if you all stuck together, no one would get hurt-That was what you thought until one of your colleagues stabbed a patient in the stomach. The once rock-solid alliance between the twenty-four of you quickly frayed as everyone scattered to save their own skin. You, in particular, ran with your colleague- a fellow classmate of yours back in medical school and now a good friend- and a younger patient, who would have been killed off quickly by one of the other twenty two. After finding a safe room, the three of you set up camp and with the rations you managed to steal, proportioned out accordingly. You could only hope that help would arrive soon.Or at least sooner than when your camp was discovered. Two the more particularly more desperate bloodthirsty hostages found your camp in a struggle to protect both you and the patient, your co-worker and friend was beheaded right before your eyes. They killed the patient quickly as well.( You didn’t think it was possible, not with the instruments a hospital would have. )This is where they said you ‘went mad’. You don’t remember too much about that time- only that it was dark and you were hungry, thirsty, and terrified. Horrified. And then the next you knew, you were in water. You don’t know how you got there, but somehow without alerting your abductors, you manage to get to the edge of the hospital, where you found a river.You dove in and swam for what seemed like forever until you washed up on shore, barely breathing.Out of the twenty-four kidnapped, you were the only one to make it out alive.So where does that leave you now? With a distinct fear of both hospitals and water, you returned to your mother’s house, where she lets you stay as you ‘recover’ as the doctors put it. Aside from working as a cashier at her store, you barely leave the house, but you’ll go to the beach at night, on occasion, and even dip your feet into the water.

( verse: with the promise of a better world. )

( please see verse: with the promise of a better world - this is a canon divergent interpretation of Annie Cresta from the Hunger Games. ) She grew up in District Four and trained to become a career tribute ( in all but spirit ), a position she was less than enthusiastic about carrying. In the arena, after witnessing her district partner get beheaded, she ‘went mad’ and ‘was never the same’ ever since.INTRODUCTION.Similar to her counterpart in Collins’ canon, Annie was born to the lower-middle class of District Four. Her father having disappeared from the district years ago, she was the breadwinner of her tiny family consisting of her mother and her younger sister. While there were years where Annie would secretly take tesserae out to feed her family, her family more or less rested in the middle class of District Four as net weavers for their town.Growing up, there was nothing Annie hated more than attending the career academy lessons her mother insisted on putting her through. As someone who detested violence, but more importantly preferred to pass time in the ocean, she did not see the point of attending them, especially if there were already classmates who were more than hungry to participate in the games. Alas, her mother begged her to go if only to soothe her nerves- you never knew when these skills would come in handy ( or if you would end up as the unlucky soul to enter the games ).While Annie staggered behind her classmates in handling weapons, what she did excel in was wildlife survival. Along with being considered one the best swimmers of her grade, she learned how to scavenge specifically around bodies of water. She also discovered her passion for medically treating people, delegating herself to treating fellow classmates who got injured during the sparring sessions. She promised herself that once she graduated from the academy, she would find a way to learn more about medicine to become a doctor.This, however, came to a sudden halt when she was reaped into the 70th Games. As the escort for District Four called for volunteers, she felt the stone in her stomach sink lower and lower as the silence stretched on. Although District 4 was considered a career district, the truth was sometimes there weren’t any volunteers during the reapings simply due to lack of students or lack of experience amongst the potential volunteers.That, and Annie was seventeen- basically an adult by District Four’s standards.GAMES.Heeding the advice of her mentor, Taiyang Annie chose not to stand out both in the training sessions and among the career pack, many of whom she secretly found rather full of themselves. She preferred to speak with her district partner, a stocky eighteen year, whose large hands belied his mastery of fishing hooks. He had been her classmate in the academy over the years. She scored a seven in her session with the gamemakers and managed to mildly charm the audience and Caesar Flickerman with her sincerity and concern for her mother and sister.The 70th Games took place in what looked like an outdoor arena. Long concrete walls lined the edge of the arena, forming a V shape. After the initial bloodbath, she makes her escape from the cornucopia with her district partner before they meet up with the other two parts of the career pack. With half of the tributes already slaughtered, she tries to ignore the corpses left as she focuses on scavenging for edible plants and food. There’s a moment where the mutated mosquitos knock her district partner out, but she’s able to draw the mosquitos under a tarp and away from him before he gets sucked dry. All in all, for an event where her life is not guaranteed, it’s smooth sailing so far…until the career pack is ambushed by another pack of non-career tributes. In this fight with a long scythe gifted to him from a sponsor, the tribute from District Eleven sneaks up behind Annie and her district partner-And suddenly, there’s nothing but blood. Blood crawling over her hands, crawling down her arms and into her clothes, on her legs, and feet and next to her, there should have been her district partner looking back at her in shock. Except there isn’t- there’s his head lobbed off in a clean cut falling and falling before it lands in her lap.She screams.( They say that’s when she went mad, a piece of her lost to the Capitol never to be reclaimed again. Those who were watching her say if there was one thing they remembered about her, it’s the horrified scream she let out, how she was covered in blood, her eyes bulging as if something was forcing her to look away- )The rest of her games are an unwanted blur for her. She remembers for a long while being hungry and thirsty and unable to sleep because all she would see are the walls covered in blood. And then in the next moment the ground shaking before she was swimming for her life. The gamemakers had flooded the arena. Ultimately, Annie won because not only was she the best swimmer but in water she was able to hide herself. When it came down to Annie and the tribute from District 2, she won after deliriously pushing a splintered end of a log that had fallen from the flood into the back of the other tribute, stabbing him through the chest.AFTERMATH.Severely traumatized by her time in the arena, initially she was ordered for several months to stay in one of the Capitol’s ‘best psychiatric units’. This proved to be detrimental to her well-being as the psychiasts there were more focused on getting details of her experience out of her and would even retraumatize her for the information.Ultimately it took much persuasion on her mentor and the other victors to convince President Snow to let her return to District Four. Away from the Capitol now, she begins the slow arduous process of piecing herself together…but even with seven years away from her games there are some things that will never return.

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( verse: buoy in the water. ) Main Verse/Modern Verse. After surviving a harrowing hostage situation, Annie returns to her home city in order to recover. Whether that’s been successful or not, is a different story, but she’s gained a reputation for being ‘mad’ now, when in truth, she is a survivor and more importantly grasping for the parts of the person she used to be.
Main Verse B. Rather than returning to her mother’s house, Annie is invited to stay over at her aunt’s house in Seoul as the city is familiar to her, but also far away from where the incident happened. That being said, her reputation as the ‘mad girl’ still seems to follow her…( verse: with the promise of a better world. ) Hunger Games Verse. As the 70th Victor of the Hunger Games, Annie has garnered a reputation as the ‘mad girl’ after witnessing her district partner get beheaded in the arena. However, in her moments of lucidity she can’t help but wonder if there’s a better world out there… ( private group verse. )( verse: in the new world. ) Canon verse- spoilers ahead. With the Capitol overthrown, Annie returns alone to her home in District Four. A widow with her deceased husband’s unborn child, she keeps prefers to keep to herself and the water. And she watches the world that she, her husband and so many others fought for get better.

bonds.

( verse: buoy in the water. )

JUNG ARA. A dear friend from her med school days. Just as Annie is not the person she once was, Ara, after years of separation, seems to be in the same boat. Annie is not completely aware of the full picture of the lifestyle Ara leads now, although that has not stopped her from worrying about the wounds Ara returns to her with. ( friend ; @uroborosymphony )

OH HYUKJAE. Annie’s oppa. A family friend since they were young, Hyukjae is the older brother Annie has never had. Though usually sharp tongued with others, he is much more tender with Annie, especially since she’s returned to Seoul. He continues to be her rock, her anchor in a time where floating barely feels like a viable option. ( family friend ; @rippleofwords )

TAIYANG TSENG. tba. ( ara's boyfriend ; @velventineblue )

( verse: with the promise of a better world. )

TAIYANG TSENG. Once one of star pupils of the career academy she attended, Taiyang volunteered to be her mentor when she was reaped. He's a figure shrouded in mystery...but he's only person in the Capitol that she knows. And the only person who wants her to stay alive. ( mentor & friend ; @velvetineblue )

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the diamond ( aeri. )

💎 polish your rage like a diamond. ( interactions. answered. headcanons. dash games. aesthetic. mirror. )

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As the daughter to a prominent businessman, Aeri was raised on the finest of luxuries, never wanting for anything. Initially spoiled if not even bratty, she grew up a naive, snobbish, and tempermental child with an inmate warmth and charisma. However, she strove to be better, initially first to get her parents’ attention, but then to better herself. Over the years, she would grow out of her insecurity, replacing the spoiled heiress reputation with that of an ‘it’ girl. Graceful in mannerism, she has no problems with socializing and could very easily charm others. However, her loyalty is hard-earned; those she considers friends are far and few and amongst that crowd, there are only a few she trusts.When she becomes an avox, initially she is distraught if not even lifeless. Rage, however fuels her and over the years, she becomes one of the few avoxes openly defiant with the peacekeepers and chooses to carry herself as the heiress she was meant to be. Of course, she also does develop a penchant for violence, but even heiress have their flaws.

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💎 this verse is based in suzanne collin’s hunger games trilogy. if you need a general overview of this universe, please let me know and i would be happy to fill you in! content warning for body horror & human trafficking.( tldr. ) once the heiress to an empire, she was sent to the bottom of the ladder in hopes that it would rein her beloved in. years later, she colludes with the other avoxes and rebels in order to free her beloved and to reclaim her rightful place at the top of society.Whereas in the other districts to participate in the Hunger Games is akin to going in one’s death, in District One, it is an honor to participate Capitol’s Slaughter Games. For the children growing up in District One, to volunteer for the Hunger Games is not a decision made likely. In order to prove themselves, they study the art of war and tactics and give the entirety of their lives in the name of victory. Such a price comes in exchange for glory and respect from the District.How could a child not be taken in by this promise?Kang Aeri is no exception. As the third and youngest child of a prominent gemologist and jeweler, she sets her eyes on the title of District One’s Tribute- in truth, she has no actual reason to. She’s already set for life financially and is destined inherit a small portion of his business. It’s not a necessity for her to volunteer, especially when there was already a multitude of children hungrier for the title.And yet pride pushes her to stay on the path even when the training gets even more brutal. For even if her parents are rich, that does not guarantee that they are loving. In truth, her father is strict, demanding of all three of his children and her mother is negligent, too caught up in emulating the socialites of the Capitol. To become a victor would not only guarantee her district’s respect, but also her parents’ attention.Of course, the path there is, well, more arduous than she intially thinks it would be. For one thing, it’s difficult to be considered for the tribute position when Darae Devora Song is in her class. Not only is Deva stronger, faster, and better at everything combat related, but she’s beautiful.( If Aeri’s mother talks about how lucky Deva’s parents must be to have a daughter like her, Aeri won’t say it hurts. Because it doesn’t. )And it infuriates Aeri. Pushes her work even harder; compells her to switch from bows and arrows to knives; prove to her classmates ( and Deva most of all ) that she’s more than just a spoiled heiress.How strange then, that once the hard work pays off, it doesn’t give Aeri the title of Tribute for District One. Deva already took that spot, but the hard work does grant Aeri confidence, the respect of her classmates, her parents, and perhaps shockingly, Deva’s affections. From bitter enemies to close friends to perhaps something more, Aeri strangely doesn’t want Deva to volunteer. Doesn’t want to lose her beloved friend to the death.And so when the reaping comes around, Aeri clasps a black obsidian pendant around Deva’s neck.“You better come back alive or I won’t forgive you,” Aeri declares and she’s definitely not teary when she sees Deva off. And when Deva returns, Aeri plays it cool, now supported by her father’s full confidence in inheriting his business.( “I knew you’d win,” she says rather breezily if not affectionately. And to which Deva asks her out. Falling in love with her was inevitable it seems. )How naive of her to think that things would always look up. Two years into their relationship, Aeri is suddenly picked up by a car from the Capitol. One moment, she’s a socialite, set to show the Capitol District One’s true potential-And in the next, her tongue has been cut out and she’s shoved into a cramped apartment with the expectation of serving the very people she should be networking with. It’s all a ploy she comes to learn- a ploy by President Snow to keep Deva in line.It’s a ploy that breaks Aeri.And a ploy that makes her furious. How dare that man do so? He might have been successful, establishing control over Deva, but he forgot one thing.Diamonds are best formed under pressure.And a flame can always use cinders to come back to life.She’ll be back.

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( verse: with the promise of a better world. ) main verse. once the heiress to a prominent empire within District One, Aeri’s life changed for the worse when President Snow kidnapped her and turned her into an Avox to control her beloved. now forced into a life of servitude, she now works at the Capitol serving the very people she once blended in seamlessly with- but make no mistake. She’s be back.

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❤️ DARAE DEVORA SONG. Initially contemptuous, they grew up in the same cutthroat society as rivals vying for the title of tribute for District One. Friendship, however, arose in the most unexpected of places and from that came an irreplaceable love, that not even Snow can severe. The first person who believed in Aeri. ( childhood rival and longtime lover ; @uroborosymphony - and i hope that you won't slip away in the night. )

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tempora mutantur ( yoojin. )

🌻 let us accept that things end, even when that scares us. ( interactions. answered. headcanons. dash games. aesthetic. mirror. )

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Despite being at least 1000 years old, Yoojin acts more like a child. Youthful. playful and light on his feet, he’s inclined to try and make an adventure out of even the most mundane routines. The biggest adventure/fascination for him, however, will always be the people who inadvertently cross into his life. He takes genuine interest in the lives of others and his loved ones and will always try to help when he can.Uncomfortable with conflict, Yoojin will often take on the role of peacemaker among groups of people and if he happens to be a party, he’s more inclined to try and avoid the problem rather than face it head-on. Despite being generally patient and even-tempered with others, he’s hard on himself.As an immortal, for the most part, Yoojin has learned to love in a detached manner. love people while they are around and let them go when it’s time for them to leave. He has come to terms with the fact that he will most likely outlive all of his loved ones. Nevertheless, he continues to reach out because love lost will always return. Without a question.

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Rapid Cell Regeneration. AKA the source of his immortality. Regardless of any wounds he receives, his body will automatically heal itself to the state it had been in when it received the bonghwang’s tears. As such, Yoojin is incapable of becoming ill.True Form. Cursed by the gods he used to serve, Yoojin was given this form to reflect in those gods' eyes the true nature of his immortality. In this monstrous form, his strength, speed, and endurance multiply by at least two, but it gives off a stench of a human corpse. The transformation both between this form and his human one is incredibly painful can only be prevented by wearing his mala beads.

history.

( tldr. ) He made a prayer to the gods for the power to protect his best friend and got granted a healing factor (aka immortality). She passed and throughout the course of one thousand years he’s been waiting to see her again.Before you were immortal, you were a “brat who could hear the voices of the gods”. Of course in this era of warring states and unrest, how much use is that supposed to be, especially if your best friend is a warrior beloved, not just by the people she protected, but also the very gods you could hear?She was your childhood friend, but even a bond like could not explain to you why she insisted on keeping you by her side. Unlike her, you couldn’t do much- you cringed at the sight of blood, you hated fighting, and you loathed speaking in front of large groups of people. Why would she want him as her longtime companion, when there were people who adored her and even a royal family whose prince she married?She never answered your question.However, in light of an attempted assassination on her life, you felt the need to prove your worthiness to her. Praying to the gods you could hear, you asked for the power to protect her. However, it was not the gods that granted your wish. Rather a bonghwang passing by heard your plea and impressed with the resolve that accompanied it, it granted you the gift of an indestructible body. Rapid healing and cell regeneration. Immortality. You became her shield when she could not defend herself.The one thing you could not protect her from, however, was death itself. Eventually, your best friend would pass away from old age, and you were left alone. And not without a price. Because the bonghwang that granted your wish was not considered part of the gods you served, your gods punished you for ‘challenging their authorities’. Unable to take your life, they instead cursed with a monstrous form, one with the strength, speed, and endurance of a beast, but also one that smelled of rotting human flesh. The true nature of what you’ve become.It's been a thousand years since you’ve last seen your best. You’ve been through some ups and downs since then, but it’s okay, you can wait.You’re good at waiting.

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( verse: one thousand years. ) Main Verse. Having lived for a little more than a thousand years, Yoojin’s seen his fair share of life. He's more than happy to be proven wrong though. Life can still be surprising and besides, he’s waiting for the day his best friend returns to Earth.
( verse: one thousand days. ) Human Verse. A curse finally lifted, after living out the reminder of a human life, Yoojin travels to the eternal and years later, is reborn as Lee Iseul, a ray of sunshine with a penchant for mischief and recklessness. Raised by Buddhist Monks, he moves to Seoul alongside his childhood friend seeking to start his own life…and understand why he keeps having a recurring set of dreams.

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SAJA. A fellow experienced immortal; works for death. Despite being only a century younger than Yoojin, Saja's surprisingly naive when it comes to living in the human world. Yoojin's taken it upon himself to introduce him to such pleasures- hopefully, he won't give Saja a heart attack in the process. ( friend ; @jeoseungsaja )

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the left hand ( k. )

♠️ crime is only a left-handed form of human endeavor. ( interactions. answered. headcanons. dash games. aesthetic. mirror. )

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Having been the middle man for Kang Yohan for years on end, Lee Ga-ram, K, is more accustomed to working in the background rather than in the spolight. Watching the rich and his enemies for years on end has made K bitter if not skeptical of those around him. While he does try to be polite, he has a tendency to come off more as abrasive, words curt and straight to the point. A muted demeanor allows them to not only blend in with the crowds, but also to keeping most at a distance.And yet for all the stoicism they might display, they secretly harbor a short temper. Quick to defend their loved ones, they're likely to jump head first into a fight without thinking of the logistics. After waking up from what should have been a fatal fall, they find themselves without a purpose. His enemies defeated, revenge already taken, and yet a family’s reputation unchanged, Lee Ga-ram finds himself floundering…empty, which in turn frustrates him.

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♠️ content warning for suicide.Please note, K from tvN’s The Devil Judge does not belong to me- this is only my interpretation of him. Highly recommend the show as well if you’re a fan of vigilantes in dystopian societies with lots of queer coding! SPOILERS DOWN BELOW.( tldr. ) His family was destroyed after the Chief Prosecutor destroyed his father’s career using fabricated evidence. Spent years as the left hand to a vigilante to seek revenge, only to be realize the system can't be changed. They survived a fatal fall and is currently in recovery.When you were young, you were the golden child- beloved by your friends and a doting pair of parents, who could see you do no wrong. Well, save for the fact that you were left handed, but that wasn’t your fault. It could be corrected with time. Your mother was kind and your father, well, you wanted to be him when you got older. He was an assemblyman- an upstart in the system with his upright morals and desire to better serve the poor, the immigrants, and the underrepresented.Maybe that’s why that prosecutor set her sights on him.Her name is Cha Kyung Hee and like your father, she is young, and is believed to go on to do great things in the world. And she does- at the price of your father’s fall.She fabricates evidence, throws the accusation of bribery onto your father’s name. The public’s opinion of him shifts very quickly and watches his good name collapse like a set of dominos.You know it couldn't be true, but why would they believe you, a child? Your father, disgraced, hangs himself and your mother becomes a shade of herself. Even now, she can't look at you, a spliting image of your father, without crying.You were in middle school.A golden child no more, your remaining days in middle school and even your high school days are…rough to say the least. Most of your friends cut ties with you and you, being the child of a ‘corrupt politician’, become a favorite target among bullies. You grow surly and volatile, picking fights with your classmates if they haven’t already started it with you. You’re lonely, you’re frustrated, you’re miserable.And that’s when you meet him.Kang Yohan, is a lawyer, studying to become a judge. Except he’s no ordinary judge, or at least he doesn’t have plans to be. He tells you about the filthy rich, how they need to be taken down and when he gives you the names, there’s one in familiar that rings familiar to you: Cha Kyung Hee.The prosecutor that destroyed your family. She's now the Chief Prosecutor. When you realize she has a family of her own, that your broken family is but a stepping stone in her political career, you see red.How dare she?Kang Yohan- Judge, you come to refer to him as makes you an offer: he needs a left hand. Someone to do the dirty work for him. Become his left hand and he’ll make sure you get your revenge.You don't even think twice.Yohan teaches you how to rein in your angry, teaches you how to harness it. And he gives you an alias:K.Becoming K, the Judge’s left hand, gives you…you wouldn’t necessarily call it happiness, but purpose might be the better word. A desire for revenge on the prosecutor who ruined your entire life. You tell yourself you’ll do whatever it takes, however long it takes.( Deep down though, you know it won’t truly give you what you need. The desire flares and flares until one day, years into the plan, you realize you're not even angry anymore. Still, you stay with the Judge- what else are you supposed to do? )And then that day comes. Cha Kyung Hee steps into the back of her car, which you have hijacked, scaring off her secretary. You tell her this is her last chance. She tells you that you look like your father.In her office, she shoots herself in the head. It should feel like a victory, like revenge at long last achieved, but all you feel is empty.Now what?Well, you’ve been with the Judge for long enough, and even if you aren’t nearly as important to him as say, his niece or even his right hand, Judge Kim, there isn’t anyone else you can turn to. A left hand can’t function on its own. You stay with him.And perhaps that is to both of your detriment. Later when you look back on it, you’ll say that you were being careless at the time, when Yohan's enemies catch you and dangle you from a construction hook as bait for the Judge. It’s in this moment you realize:There's still so much in this life you want to do.You plummet ten feet to your death.That should have been your end.Except it isn’t- six months later, you wake up in a hospital room. A coworker is the first to drop by. He fills you in on what you’ve missed: Kang Yohan is gone, declared a national criminal. Legally considered dead, but in actuality, he's living abroad in Switzerland. He won’t be returning any time soon.They've also replaced the Chief Prosecutor. You don't try to look into it- they're probably just as corrupt as Cha Kyung Hee.And where does that leave you then? Loaded for certain, as Kang Yohan made arrangements to make sure you could live comfortably, but the system remains unchanged. And you?It won’t bring back your family and it won’t bring back what you’ve lost.What are you supposed to do now?

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( verse: spades released. ) Post-The Devil Judge. Main Verse. After surviving a fall that should have killed them, Ga-ram wakes up to find out Kang Yohan is a national criminal, and to a justice system that has never and will never change. They find themselves…frustrated and purposeless as they continue to recover.
( verse: ace in the hole. ) K works behind the scenes as an informant and extra muscle to make sure Kang Yohan’s trials go off without a hitch, all while insuring that the victims of the trials are given the justice they themselves were never given. The need for revenge having died off long ago, they stay with Kang Yohan knowing they have nothing else.

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